God.

what does the world want from me? why are the ones who try the most the ones who get hurt the most? where can i find solace? i have the best intentions in the world. i try. i love. where did i go wrong, God? what are my faults? why. why am i like this, God? i've tried, i really have. and i promise that i'll go on trying. but for the rest of my life? God, please work in his heart or mine.

how can pain ever feel good? and why is there the need to dig deeper into my wounds? where can i get the support i need?

God, give me the strength to go on. please. don't leave me alone, because i can't cope.